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Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
8:41 am	My last entry Yup, you got it right. I have thought long and hard about this and I have came to a decision to stop typing my entries in here. Don't get me wrong. I have no problem with LiveJournal.com. I love it here but I am starting to realized that I am losing my little personal touch with several of my Long Distance friends. I feel like I have became lazy to keep in touch with others since I've started this. A LOT had happened over my spring break. It was a wonderful experiences. I plan on going back to Denver in Mid May until mid August. I have decide to literally drown myself in school so I can finish school by May 2008. If I don't, then I won't be able to graduate by May 2008 and I REALLY want to get over with it. Anyway, I am closing this forever. I will be contacting you several of you personally. If you have not heard from me, that is probably means I don't have your email address. You are very welcome to send me an email at Rockymtngrrll@yahoo.com Love ya all (Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
11:06 am	Crabby! I am SO crabby! Everything has went WRONG the minute I got home! First, I am under a lot of pressure to complete my research about Older Adult Suicide. Don't ask me why I pick such a topic like that. It's due this Thursday. I already picked some articles but I haven't gotten around to START typing! Argh. Secondly, the minute I got home, the STUPID mail person put EVERY single mail in our door slot. It's weird how this apartment works. We are the only apartment that has our own private entry, both front and back door while four other units have to share one door to get in. That door is locked. Behind that door, it has four other unit mailboxes. That means, our regular mail woman has the key to get in and sort the mails out. Bradley and I do NOT have a FREGGIN' keys to get in that door and there are no reasons we should anyway. Everytime,...I mean EVERY SINGLE time, the new mail person would drop ALL of other apartments units mail in our door slot! That means, I HAVE to go next door, ring the door bell so someone can open the door and sort their damn mail out for them! It's SO ANNOYING that I made an index card, "Dear Mail Person, This is Apt FOUR ONLY. Please DO NOT put other apartments mails in our door slot! We do not have access to OTHER apartments! Thank you!" I do not know if it's because they're too lazy to sort it out or they're simply clueless. We'll see if this actually works. Third, My DAMN sidekick hasn't been working property since last night. I lose some of my connections who I talk to daily. I can only use text messages so I have been collecting other text phone numbers so I can use it as a back up. Fourth, Bison System from Gallaudet is down. I was unable to check my midterm grades or anything. I was NOT able to get in the system since Friday. So I waited very patience until this evening. It still won't let me in. So of course, as a big complainer, I whin to tech dude at the computer lab. He checked his. It still works BUT IT STILL DOESNT WORK ON MINE!!!!!! He said wait for ten minute. Its been one hour, it STILL DOESN'T WORK!!!! Argh! Fifth, I am under pressure to get this house spotless clean. I am SICK of this mess. Dust is piling up. Naomi hasn't started using her drawers. I am trying to get the curtins up and pictures up. I want this place spotless clean by the time I leave for Denver this Friday which I am starting to doubt it'll never happen. ARGH! Everyone can kiss my ass! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
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Monday, February 28th, 2005
9:46 pm	Today is last day of February I am SO glad I survived in February. February is the worst month for me. I hate it but I've managed to survive and made it through. Last Friday was the worst day...everyone was literally thinking I might blow up and move back to Colorado. I walked to my car last Friday at 2:45pm. Turns out, my car wasn't there. Thinking, it had to be towed because I wasn't really supposed to park there between 4pm to 6pm. So I called the towing company, they didn't have my car. They suggested that I contact the DC towing police. So I did, they didn't have my car. Shit, someone took my car! I burst out in tears and Brad had to take over the phone call for me. The police came. I reported it stolen. I was so upset, I had to call in work. Brad was sweet enought to be there for me. Found out, my insurance doesn't cover theft. I was basically shit out of luck. Brad dragged me to bake some cakes and went to Gallaudet to watch a movie called, Troy. That is a GOOD movie. I highly recommand you to watch that movie if you haven't. Finally I got home around 1 30am. I was still all tighten up and wide awake but at the same time very exhausted. My guts feeling telling me to go out to my front door so I went and looked out. Immediately, there was a police car and put a spotlights on me. They asked me if I reported my car stolen this afternoon and I said yes. They asked if my car was a volkswagen. I said yes! and they asked me what color is my car? I responced Blue. They said that they found my car. I was THRILLED to hear that but at the same time, I was scared because I couldn't stand the thought of my car all falling apart. They gave me a ride to my car. Turns out, it was excatly two blocks away from my house. I couldn't believe it. The other cop was already there. They explained that I got a 100 dollars ticket and the cop had my car towed and simply forgot to add my car in the system. My thoughts in my head, "You mean, I worried sick for nothing, missed work, cried all day, stressed out, dropped my friday night plans...just simply because someone forgot to report that they moved my car two blocks away??????" I was thrilled but PISSED! I am just glad to have my car back in one pieces. My car is seriously falling apart. It needs new set of tires, new rear wipers, new front grille. (Someone stole my front grille.) I am gonna treat my car like a king this summer. This week, I have midterms. I have like 8 papers to type, two midterm tests, and blah. It's snowing outside. Who knows what will happen tomorrow. :) Back to work. Leave some comments! Mwah! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 24th, 2005
4:35 pm	What a week. I have been meaning to type an entry few days ago but this site was down for some reasons. I have been feeling good but getting burn out though. I got my student loan last Friday, blew A LOT of money but very well worth it. I spend most on bills. I paid off one credit card. Now I only have one credit card to pay off. Two of my credit cards limits went up, I think it was because my car has been paid off and my credit history went up but at the same time, I am afraid if I paid off my last credit card, my credit history will go down because I have nothing else to pay...I don't know. HOw does this excatly work? My friend, he paid off his truck three years ago. His truck got totalled. He went out and bought a new truck. He was unable to get his truck on his own without needing a co sign because nothing was "building" in his credit. Hmm... I have 8 papers to type, one research papers, two midterm tests and one presentation next week. Argh. It sucks but I think I am going to be a nerdy nerd this weekend to get it all done this weekend so I don't have to be super crabby next week. I am way too excited about going to Denver in 16 days! Marcus did something....so sweet. I send out an mass email to all of my colorado friends letting them know when I'll be in town, etc. Marcus knew I was not able to afford to rent a car for a week. (about $200 for seven days) I decided to just..try my best and see everyone as much as I can and use my legs more to get around. Well, Marcus told me the good news. His brother has two cars. He is willing to lend me one of his daily car for a week. I couldn't believe it! All I have to do is pay gas and drive carefully. This guy, Marcus is ....wow....he amazed me. :) I am going to get some papers done. I will be back soon! Mwah! (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 19th, 2005
9:06 am	Copper Our beloved golden reteriver, Copper, passed away yesterday at 10am. :( (Comment on this)
Friday, February 18th, 2005
8:42 am	Here I come, Denver, Colorado! It has been a while since the last time I put an entry here. I blame my english class for making me write bunch of papers each week. I am already behind on papers that I am supposed to type. It's hard to keep up with it! Two times a week and the professor expect me to write three different papers at once! Argh. I am hanging in there. This semester, I like to say I am a bit more laid back and more quiet then usual. I haven't gone to any big events except for the DPHH (Deaf Professional Happy Hour) last week. I haven't gone to Apex, Zacks, Pourhouse, or Irish Times since November. In a way, it is good that I didn't go because all of it requires money. I also have been accepting more weekend babysitting jobs. My theory is if I work on weekends, I am most likely will earn money and actually save my money more. Now that my rent has been reduce to at least half to compare what I was paying last semester, no more car payments, two credit cards left to pay off instead of three credit cards, I am grabbing the chance to save more money and work more so I can save money. This summer, I need to spend a good amount of money on my car. I need to buy four new tires. Quite frankly, I am tired of worry about whather I am getting a flat tire or not. I have four different tires. I can't even rotate the tires at all! Thats more likely to wear my tires out faster. The roads in DC SUCKS! It's amazing how many potholes and HOW DEEP it is! I actually find myself paying more attention to the road instead of the cars around me! I am going to Denver, Colorado for my spring break. I am very very very excited. It's perfect timing actually. Patty will be in town. Actually she was gonna leave on March 11th but she decided to leave on March 12th so we can see each other on March 11th, the day I arrive. I am so excited to see everyone, especially Mya and Marcus. :) Ohh I said his name! I already have a lot of plans line up while I am in Denver. I will probably stay with Luci first few days then stay with Melissa for a few days. I lost about 10 pounds so far. Last week was hard on me but this week, for some reasons, it's harder for me to stay on the machine for at least 17 minutes, I don't know if it's because I am bored with it or what. I also have been going swimming more. Ever time I swim, I feel good about myself. I think next week, I am going to try a little harder as I want to lost at least another ten more pounds before I get to Denver. I gained ten pounds since I left Denver. So Right now I am back to what I weighted when I first left Denver. Extra ten pounds loss by spring break will be good. Amazing, people have made comments that I have lost some weight. I don't excatly feel the differences yet, physically. I mean, my jeans are not loose yet. I do feel really good mentally. I feel good inside of me. Everyone has been getting sick and for some reasons and somehow, I haven't gotten sick yet. *knock on wood!* Today is my student loan day. I will be finally getting my student loans today. Will be cashing it out at Riggs Bank and then go across the street and deposit cash into my account at Bank of America. It takes 5 days to cash the check if I directly deposited at BOA. If I have the cash deposit into my account, it'll appear asap. All of my bills is due in two days so I need to pay them up today as it takes two days to process online bills. I am going to feel so good to get some of it paid off. I am hoping to pay off one credit card so that way I just have to worry about ONE credit card to pay! I decided to get eye contact next week. This is my reward for losing weight and stick with my work out. You have no idea how a pain it is to wear my glasses while I work out. It slips off my nose! I just hope eye contact will work out on me. It didn't work on my dad. It's either because he has no patience or because he has a long thick eye lashes. People have told me that if you have long thick eye lashes, it's harder to put the contact in your eye. I want to try and see. I really hope it'll work. I look silly with crooked glasses. :oP Anyway, I better go. I am supposed to be meeting a friend on Viedo Phone and interview her as a teacher! Yay! Mwah....leave me some comments! I want some comments! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
11:43 pm	Whew! I got many things to say! First of all, Jesse story! It was so so so so so so funny. I showed up at Market Place to grab a bite to eat. I noticed Jesse was nowhere to be found. Usually, he's early. As I was about to leave to go to the computer lab to print several things, I saw Jesse. Jesse's jacket was button shut. That was unusual. He was acting...funny, of course I asked him what is wrong? He looked around and finger spelled "t-h-e-r-e w-a-s a h-o-l-e i-n m-y p-a-n-t-s. It took me a while to figure out what he was saying. When I figured that out, I couldn't help it by look for it. He immediately said "Stop LOOKING down there!" "Whhhaaat! I can't help it! I'm straight!" I said. He was looking for another interpreter that is willing to take over his place at 1pm so he can go out and buy a new pants. Good one hour later, after he bough the new pants, he was going to change his pants when he gets back to school but as he got in the car, his pant button popped out. Seriously, he was having major clothing problems that day! I died laughing so hard! The result is, he learned that expensive pants do NOT last long. Anyway, I had a pretty good BUSY weekend. I went out with Karen to Deaf Professional Happy Hour (DPHH. It was alright. I wasn't too impressed and saw some old faces. When I got home at about 1am, friends came by to chill. So we had several friends over until 4am. Saturday, I babysat. After the parents got home around 11ish pm, I went to Chuck's slumber party. :) It was cute and fun. I was the first person to crash. I didn't even drink all that much and I was so so so so tired that I completely fell asleep. It was a good sleep tho. Today, I spend all day working on my homework and I am not quite close to be done but I am on the way. :) Ok, homework time! Mwah! (Comment on this)
Friday, February 4th, 2005
3:44 am	What an interesting week. I actually had a lot of laughs this week. Brad is home more often so it's really nice to see him more and I started to show him my apperications when he's home. He's having some dramas this weekend. Two of his ex boyfriends is staying at our house. Quite interesting! Yesterday, I felt like I went theraphy. I was emotional but good emotional. My professor in FYS is basically helping me to take another step in college and fight through it. He's helping me how to stay motivation everyday. He's helping me to think differently. He didn't really do much but he really took the time to listen to each of us so it's really nice to have that class. He really want me to hang in some of my journals to him so he can understand what excatly I am going through. Quite interesting to see that kind of professor in college. Most college professors don't usually give a crap about your personal life...just get the dang homework done and do well on tests, that's all. Hmm. He's helping me to deal with that. It's really nice to have that support. Another support system that I found myself enjoying is Brad and I have class at 9 30am every Tuesdays and Thursdays. We both make sure we wake up, one of us would make some coffee, help each other getting ready for school and walk to school together. It's really nice to have that support and it shows that we care for each other and making sure both of us go to school and not miss class. I got a letter from Derik. I am sad. He is NOT doing good at all. Few others has been telling me that there is a possibly I could basically slap the hell out of him and change his life as he really likes me a lot. The thing is...I don't want to become his mom. I only want to be his friend and lover....not his mom, telling him what to do and how can he take care of himself if he keeps fucking it up. It's really sad and I do worry about him but...sigh..why is he doing this? argh, I'm late for work. More later. Jesse had a great story about yesterday and I MUST tell you about it! More soon! Love ya all (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
9:01 pm	American Sign Language VS Oral One of my english paper I wrote in the past.... When parents first discover their child is Deaf, they are faced with a very difficult decision for the future of their Deaf child. The fact is there are many choices for their Deaf child and a lot of the times parents are not aware of the choices they have. The parents are being faced with many questions regarding their child’s future. “Will my child ever be able to talk?” “Will my child be independent and successful in life?” “How will my child communicate with other people daily?” These are the questions most parents wonder about. One of the two top choices is American Sign Language (ASL) and Oral. Both of the choices are very popular and can be successful. There are many positives and negatives views on both choices. Parents have to put extra energy and work for their child to be successful.ASL was developed by American Deaf people to communicate with each other and has existed for as long as there have been Deaf Americans. It’s the top 4th language most used in United States. ASL is the manual language that is distinct from spoken English (ASL is not based on English grammar/syntax). ASL is becoming more popular and is one of the foreign languages; however it is not yet official. More high schools are offering ASL classes for anyone who wants to learn these days. When parents do not want to take their child’s deafness identity away, they tend to choose ASL over other options. Most parents believe if a child is deaf, they should learn their own primary language. Parents can learn how to use the ASL by taking ASL classes, gathering with other Deaf people that know ASL or from a Sign Language book. There are many ways to learn ASL. The easiest way to learn ASL is by using the language every day .There are several ASL programs in school for their child to learn. For instance, there is one Deaf school that provides housing, life skills and full education in state of Colorado. This school is the Colorado School for the Deaf and Blind (CSDB) in Colorado Springs. It was established for the purpose of providing comprehensive educational services for children who are blind and/or deaf and under the age of twenty-one. They offer full ASL communication, ASL teachers, ASL education and housing for students to stay for the week. Most students can visit their families for the weekend. They offer other choices such as speech therapy, occupational therapy, counseling, sports, and social events. In Jefferson County, there is a Charter school, Rocky Mountain Deaf School, (RMDS) in Lakewood, near Denver. They accept all deaf and hard of hearing students from preschool to middle school, regardless of where they reside. This school is also similar to what CSBD offers, but RMDS is a day school and does not offer in school sports or outside of school educational activities. RMDS offers part time speech therapy and occupational therapy. There are also a couple other Denver and Fort Collins public schools with deaf program. Deaf students have their own classrooms in their deaf programs. Depending on their education level, some Deaf students may be able to attend regular classes by choice. These schools also provide sign language interpreters, speech therapy, sports and social events along with other hearing students. There is no best or worst way to raise a child in ASL. In the 16th century, oral Deaf educators and other professionals focused on teaching speaking only. It was not until the end of the 19th century when educators began to develop the role that residual hearing could have in the oral education of the Deaf. With the use of such technology, the oral educators are able to make the lives of oral Deaf children more successful. When it comes to parents making choices for their child’s future, they want to ensure their child will be able to communicate with everyone as they become adult. This lends to choosing Oral method. The best method to learn how to listen and speak is to start as soon as possible. In order to listen, the child would need one or two sets of hearing aids or a cochlear implant. The child would need auditory verbal speech therapy, which teaches a child to develop listening skills through one-on-one therapy that focuses attention on the use of remaining hearing (with aid of amplification). Frequently, the parents would get their child a private auditory verbal speech therapy for home. When the child is old enough to go to school, the public school must provide speech therapy by law. There is a boarding school, Clarke School for the Deaf Center for Oral Education in Northampton, near Boston, Massachusetts. Clarke School is a co-educational boarding and day school that prepares Deaf students, 3-15 years of age, for transition into schools with their hearing peers. They provide a school audiologist, auditory oral communication, mainstream services, social events and sports. When parents decide their Deaf child is ready to enter into a mainstream public/private school, they will discover that oral programs can vary from school to school. Most of the time, the oral child is the only Deaf student in school. Sometimes, schools may provide oral interpreters and captionists. In most cases, the school provides note-takers and speech therapy. Teachers and classmates guide the Deaf students to the right direction in education. Dealing with social aspect of school can be difficult for oral Deaf students. When it comes to making friends with the hearing peers, it takes some adjustment for hearing peers to communicate and socialize with the Deaf. Again, there is no best or worst way to raise a child in Oral. There are also no right or wrong ways to raise a Deaf child. It takes a lot of energy and time for the parents to teach the child to communicate with both the Deaf and hearing worlds. It takes commitment and dedication for the child to stay on one track in order to be successful with their life. There are many famous Deaf people in the world who are successful in life such as, Marlee Matlin, the famous Deaf Actress, who relies on sign language for everyday communication. She was very involved with her acting since age of eight. She grew up with private tutors and mainstream public schools. Heather Whitestone McCallum became the first physically challenged Miss America in the pageant’s history. She attended the Central Institute for the Deaf in Missouri, an oral program school. At some point in every person’s life challenges will be encountered. However, for some individuals, such as those who are born deaf or blind, those challenges may be more frequent and more difficult to overcome. Now, though, through acceptance, research and technology, and understanding much headway has been made toward helping Deaf individuals lead successful and happy lives in a hearing world. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 31st, 2005
11:50 am	Six pounds! This morning....full of good news! Naomi got an email from her blind date that she had...he wanted to go out with Naomi again. Today is Monday....that means weight day. I actually lost 6 pounds!!!!!! SIX pounds! I am so thrilled! It gives me MORE motivation to hit the gym!!!! I can't wait to go to the gym tonight! I am going to do the step up machine for 15 minutes and then a good one hour of swim! I would LOVE to lose at least 20 pounds by March...just in time for my spring break! Last Saturday was sort of nice. Brad was in a crabby mood...havin' a little difficultly of communicating with him. I noticed that I hate it when he has to be right all the time. I was simply correcting him and explained my reasons why I think Monkey Boy would have the cat nail clipper...and he immediately said that he doesn't have it with him. I said How did you know? He simply said that he didn't see Monkey boy with the nail clipper. First of all, it's easy to put the nail clipper in backpack or in your pocket or could possibly left in his car. Brad was SO fucking sure that monkey boy doesn't have it and I am like....ARGH this is my own problem! So I paged Monkey boy asking if he has the nail clippers....of course he has it! I hate the feeling where he ALWAYS has to be right. Naomi mentioned that Brad can be too in love with himself....I think she might be right about that. I love Brad and like Naomi said...we both have a relationship as a married couple without sex. That is so true. We actually argued well but over stupid shit sometimes! Brad was gone all day so I hung out at my neighbors house, watching a movie and played a game. Came home, watched more movies with Naomi, ate pizza...just basically veg out. Last night was really nice. I got the chance to 'bond' with Brad more. Troy, Ricky, Imran, Brad, Naomi and I decided to go to Dupont Circle to get something to eat. I have not gone out to eat in a long time so I decided that I deserve myself a treat. Naomi decided not to come due to her back pain so she went home. Five of us decided to take the Metro (subway) to Dupont Circle. We went to this Italian place....it was okay....I don't think I'll go back there again. Then we went to this little bookstore that has a little cafe for dessert and coffee. Well I ordered Crumble Apple Pie and Irish Dream Coffee. Let me tell you....it was STRONG. I was actually kinda buzzed from Irish Dream. Irish Dream is mixed with coffee, irish baileys and jamerson whistey. It was GOOOD! As we took the metro back home, we had to walk several blocks to get home. Somehow the boys decided to play with the snow! Snow ball fight war! It was fun. We got home. Everyone wanted to watch Catwoman. Catwoman was alright. It could have been better in my opinion. Because I have already seen it, I decided to stay in my room to finish some homework. Instead of doing my homework, I end up rearranging my room! I DO need to STOP AVIODING my homework...like now. I should be doing my homework but I am not. Pffftt! So I think I need to end this and go do my homework....ohhh maybe I'll watch this tv show that just came on.....damn! (Comment on this)
Friday, January 28th, 2005
12:49 pm	Sad..... I am sad. I am angry. I am miserable. I am depressed. I am confused too. I don't understand this. I am trying to let this go. When I first arrive to DC, Brad convinced me to stay and attend to Gallaudet. I am not blaming anyone but he did give me the impression that he would support me as much as he can. I gave up many good opporunities in Denver. Cheap rent, great close friends, possibly a good paying part time job and good expereiences. Here I am....stuck with high rent, supporting Brad's ass who can't even fucking control his money, Brad is in a hurry to get out of DC....I don't know. I am lost. I hate this. I feel like I lack of support here and I lack of.....something I know I would have in Denver. I am going to a good school but I don't know if that is enought...I do feel having support from friends is important. I do get some here but I do find myself alone. Living in DC is hard. I feel like I can't trust anyone here. I feel like not enought people appericate things. God...I just want crawl in bed and disappear. I love Brad but I hate him too. *Tears* (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 26th, 2005
9:13 pm	I hate my car Yup, I hate my car. I stopped at a light on my way to work today. I made a right turn. It became SO hard to turn. I thought to myself, shit, I got a THIRD FLAT TIRE in less then a fucking week! So I parked my car in some parking lot. Looked at all four tires.....it looks fine to me. Hmm, I popped my hood open. The anti freeze area was all smoking, steamed or whatever you called it. Flashback, four years ago, I left my oil cap on top of the engine and drove with it. The oil cap went thur the belts and ripped both belts up. The anti freeze overflowed and the car almost overheated. I immediately looked at the belts. The top belt looks fine but the bottom one is fucked. Someone please shoot me. I looked around to see if there's any car store around me. Sure enought, Firestone across the street. I walked over there and asked if they can tow my car and replace the belts. They said they can't tow my car until tomorrow. Fuck. I don't want to wait until tomorrow!!! So I asked if maybe the car will make it to Firestone parking lot since its only right across the street. Sure enought, the car made it. They wanted to charge me 103 bucks to replace the inside belt that was ripped. Thank god, my friend Brian told me to ask the dude if they have to take the outside belt to replace the inside belt. The dude said yes. So I asked how much would it cost if he replaces BOTH belts? He said 124 bucks. I knew both of the belts is around 25 to 30 bucks each and I knew it's about an hour worth of labor. So I told him to go ahead and replace both belts to save my money on double labor costs. I have NO money until this Friday. This really sucks. I don't want to spend no more money on ANYTHING! Argh! Stupid piece of crap. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
8:26 pm	Workout Day 2 WOW! I actually kept my own words! I really hope hope I do MUCH better this semester....considering I am taking a full load (16 credits), plus 10 to 15 hours of work a week. My goals for this semester is show up ALL of my classes. No more excuses of skipping classes (I skipped Math class like 85% of the time and I actually got a C plus) So far I haven't miss any classes! (High fives!) Another goal for myself is to work out every night. Not just to lose weight but I have discovered how it feels after I'm done working out. I remember last semester when I get home from work at 7pm, I am beaten from classes and driving to and from work and I didn't feel like doing ANYTHING. Yesterday, I started my work out. Lee has became my personal trainer. Pardon my language but I have asked him to be an asshole to me if I started making up excuses. Yesterday, he yelled at me to get in the damn car! He's really good at as being my personal trainer. He asked me what did I eat? and explain what I should next time. I have been drinking A LOT of water so that is good. After I did my work out around 8ish, I still have some energy left and I actually did some of my homework. I feel reallly good. I'm damn proud of myself! Say good bye to my fats! YAHOOO!!! (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
3:06 pm	Naomi Naomi...is amazing. She went through so much shit. She signed the divorced papers on December 30, 2004. She flew back to Washington DC on January 1, 2005 to begin her single life at my home. About a week later, she hurt her back very bad that she has to be taken to Howard University Hospital. They simply checked her x ray and send her home with painkillers. I came home on January 16th, Thursday. The next day, Friday, I dropped Naomi off to Student Health Service at Gallaudet so that she can go get some more painkiller. Somehow, she ended up going to George Washington University Hospital ER instead. She had an emergency back surgery to remove four largest discs. She could have been seriously permently damange her left side. She lost all of her left side feelings. She couldn't feel if she need to pee or not. After the surgery, she started to get some feelings back slowly. She came home on Sunday afternoon. She slept a lot. She tries to move around but the painkillers wipe her out exhausted. Last week Wednesday, I had to take her back to ER because her back was bleeding from the surgery and she was NOT be able to pee or poop at all. Poor Naomi. She later found out that the painkiller makes her have a harder time to poop. So she has to eat more pruce, juices, anything with fiber. Turns out she has a small infection on her back. Thank god Masa, our neighbor, is willing to change the bandage for her as I have NO tolerance for bloody, infection or anything! Today, Naomi is doing much better. She is able to walk around more, be able to cross her legs, able to pick light things up, able to pee/poop better! She was also be able to stay awake longer now. Wheww.......after all that expereinces I see what Naomi goes through, we all must take care of our back. Our back is the main support. GO NAOMI! GET WELL SOON! ILY! (Comment on this)
Friday, January 21st, 2005
10:51 am	DAMN Tires! Yesterday, everything went WRONG. I wanted someone to shoot me. It all started with my favorite jeans. I slipped on my jeans and sweater, walked to school. Took two classes. Went to lunch. David came behind me and asked if I was aware of my jeans ripped on my ass. Oh shit. I still have one more class to go! Fuck fuck. I went home. Skipped that class. I was so tired so I took a short power nap. (I had to take Naomi to ER because her back was bleeding..blah blah..will tell you more later.) Woke up, hit the road to work. Worked with the student. Got in the car. Shit. Flat tire. I remember the car slipped on the fucked up driveway when I took Naomi to the ER. I knew that was from it. Changed the tire. Drove. 20 minutes later, I hit the nasty pothole....and guess what? Spare tire got really fucked up. The rim was bent. No spare tire. I am FUCKED. Paged Brad. Brad came to see if we could use his spare tire. Nope. It's too big. So Brad went home to see if Troy or Ricky has the same tires. Nope. I told him to come back and pick up my orginial tire and get it fix. So he came back picked up the orginial tire. Couldn't find my wallet. Brad drove to my house to borrow Naomi's Credit card. Bought a $40 new tire. Came back. Where's the bolts? FUCK! I put the bolts on Brad's truck bumper. He drove away with it. FUCK FUCK FUCK! Then We decided to take one bolt out of each other tires to installed the damn tire in. Went home. I was cranky, pissed and poor Naomi was trying to cheer me up. Grrrr. Fuckin tires! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
1:28 am	A little High Strung Man, I am losing my sleep. I am exhausted but I am awake. I was on the go entire day. I left my apartment in a freezing cold weather to walk to school around 9ish AM. I have a 9 30am to 10:50am English 103. My professor is hearing. I think she'll really teach me more about research and writing essays. I think I will enjoy this class and a good healthy challenges. I have to type papers at least three times a week. I have a 11am to 11:50am Math 013. It was funny because as I was on my way to Math class, I got an pager email from my math professr asking if she could see us tomorrow. I got bit confused because the schedule tells me I have this clas s every mondays, tuesdays, thursdays and fridays. I replied asking if I still need to show up for this class. She replied back apologizing for not making any sense so she will see me in a few minutes. Sure enought, she showed up. She literally begged us if we could come in on wednesdays instead of showing up on Fridays. She really want her Fridays off. So we all happy to agree to switch our schedule and it works out! I finally have my little lunch group. Last semester, I had class from noon to 1pm every Monday, Wednesday and Fridays. So I miss those speical group get together at lunch time. Now I have noon to 1pm off everyday for lunch. It will be good for me as I can gain some more energy. Today was really good as I got to see Mark, Lee, Chad, Brian, Miko, Victor, Rene, Chuck, Jeff...few others. At 1pm, I had a very interesting class, FYS (First Year Experiences). It was so funny. When the professor, Dr Moses, came in. He sat down with his name card front of him. He immediately said, "I want to introduence you to someone." He stand up and moved his name card to his seat. He started saying that his name is Joanne Brown and started talking about how 'she' met Dr. Moses. I am thinking....hmmm.....does he have a split personitly or what. Crap, What have I done to myself, I thought to myself. But then, the more I learned about Dr. Moses. It's interesting how he would think of himself as one of his closest friends describe himself. I thought that was neat until he asked me to stand up and do what my friend would say to me. I picked Brad. Of course I had to 'act' like him as a feminies gay. It was so funny. Then at 2:35pm, I met up with Brad. Brad and I share the same class together, Introduction to Education. We grab some coffee and water. We walked to the class. When I got there, it was a small group...but once the classes started, Jamie enter in. Jamie is the person I really truely have no respect for. I just have no respect for her and here I am thinking, crap. Ten minutes later, Charlie walked in. He is the guy I actually liked but he never hangs out with his own girlfriend. To make long story to short story, he fucked around with my friendship and lost some respect for him. I still think hes a nice a guy but argh, he needs to grow up. I couldn't believe it. Jamie and Charlie is in my class with Brad! Argh. I have such a very positive energy from that professor. I feel I will do very well with this class. After my classes done, Brad and I went to the bookstore and waited forever to buy books. This time, I got the chance to spend more money on supplies, not books as I already have most of the books. Poor Brad he had to spend more money on it. We walked back home with heavy books and jumped in Brad's truck to the Cafe for dinner. We ate for a bit and ready to chat for a bit but Naomi paged me freaking out that her back was bleeding. I literally drag Brad to come home so we can check on Naomi. Turns out there was blood but it was dried. Instead of freaking out and spend more money on ER, We suggested to wait until tomrrow for walk in clinic to be double sure that she is really okay. We went to Home Depot. We bought bunch of nails and some supplies to fix up the house a bit. Very few funny thing happened such as being such an pea head to scared the shit out of each other. We were bit crazy. Jeff came over to installed our new wireless router and make sure everything in my Lap Top is all set and more safe. It took for a while to get Jeff all fixed up and stuff. Masa and Emerson came by. They helped us by fixing my picture frame and we tried to hang on up but mess up because brad didnt like it. So Brad got into it.....We finally hung up one picture, one mirror and one hanging candle up in the living room and hung four pictures in the dinning room. It's really starting to feel like a home. We love it. Now its 2Am and I am READY to CRASH. By the way, Evie is getting married on August 5, 2006 and Mya is getting married on August 12, 2006. I just have to say thank god bother of them not on the same weekend! Even though, Mya is having a tiny wedding and I am not invited, I still like to celebrate for them on my own anyway. :P Ok ok ok, Bedtime. Oh yea, everyone ate all of my sugar cookies and I didnt even have one. I need to lose weight so thats good anyway. :) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
11:23 am	Computers Well, Computers is the topic I will be talking about for a short time. After a week of bitchin', whinnin', confusin', Dad finally shut me up and bought me a lap top. Actually, That's not really what happened....sort of but I was not the brat one! I was researching whether to buy new lap top, used laptop, new desktop, serious spending money on upgrading my old desktop. After a while, I started to panic a little becuz I really do need a new stable computer by the time school starts, which it's on Jan 18th. I really want a good start. Naomi and Emerson has been using my old computer since I was gone and they both said my computer is acting werid. I don't know if it's my werid acting funny that I am used to for several months or something new weird is up. I have never own a new computer. I feel it's time for me to get a new computer, under MY name. I was researching for laptops, trying to compare the prices. Kelly taught me those fancy computer words that I never knew what it means. So I've gotten a little smarter...thanks to Kelly! I was thinking of putting little downpayment on the laptop, then pay at least 3/4 of it in February when I get my student loan and then pay monthly. That was my plan. Until, Daddy came home! As usual, I went blabber mouth all excited, explaining to him what I did in research and explained to him what Kelly taught me. Of course, Dad has to literally shut me up because he was hungry and want to EAT! So we went to Baker Square to honor in memory of Sue Robinson-Matheson as I remember how she would take me and Gisela there alllllll the time in our childhood. Gisela and I would get our own non-smoking section table while Sue goes to smoking section table and made that poor waitress go back and forth between us. During our dinner, Dad told me that he will buy me the lap top. Of course I assumed that I have to pay him back so I went on explaining about my plans of how to pay him back excatly what I would do with the store. He said, "shut up, will you?!" I realized I do really need to shut up. He said that he will buy me the lap top as long as I am in school. If I quit, drop out, die, or whatever reasons, I don't get that degree paper, I have to pay him back. Good deal! That really got me motiveation to do MUCH better in school. So! I am a proud owner of a hp notebook, whom I think I shall call "Lifesaver". Corny, I know. :) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 9th, 2005
2:11 pm	Catching up....alittle I thought I give a minute to type in my journal. A lot has been happening. I hardly have time being on a computer much. Well, I lost a lot of my motivation to get on the computer. That might be good...but at the same time, i feel like I lose my 'connection'. It seems to be getting harder and harder to write journal nowdays. :( Jesse kinda got me in gear to get back to journal because he started his journal. Thanks Jesse! Anyway, I am still in Wisconsin. I actually enjoy my time here. I am not sure why because everytime I come out to Wisconsin, I hate it. But I think I love Colorado too much and DC never let me relax. Wisconsin gives me the chance to relax but gives me the chance to hate the weather and other things. DC is nice but it's on the go ALL the time. It's hard to relax and be peaceful and enjoy the nature, but it's nice because I learn a lot from DC...such as cultural, people, different opinions, etc. That teachs me to accept others more and be more grateful for them. Colorado is perfect for me. Perfect weathers, perfect environment, perfect nature and city. Sigh...I miss Colorado. :( I think I am going to sign off until next week. I will be back in DC on January 12th if the weather allows me. Reminder for myself to talk about in my journal... My brother My family Gisela House/Money Computers Roommates College Death Evie/Mya (wedding.marriage) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 20th, 2004
4:21 pm	What....a month. I am actually feel more relax and more focused. I am so glad I left Washington DC last Saturday. Naomi and I drove to Wisconsin all day Saturday. It was warmer when I left, by the time I arrived to Wisconsin, I was FREEZING! I actually forgot how cold Wisconsin can GET! No offense to anyone who lives in Wisconsin but I am GLAD I don't live in Wisconsin! Colorado and DC is usually warmer, if it actually does get really cold, it usually last for a day or two. Anyway, I finished my first semester. It was very disappointing but at the same time, I am proud of myself for making it thur. I got an A in English, C+ in Math and an F in Chemistry Lab...I am still waiting for a final grade in Chemistry. I am actually very upset about chemistry. I do lousy in Chemistry but I actually did better then Brad did when he took that class last year with the same professor and he got a D+. It really hurts. I send three emails to my chemistry professor to find out what is my final grade. I haven't heard from him. I was venting to my english professor about my chemistry and he said that some professors tend to aviod their F students. Apparently I probably got an F in Chemistry too. So upsetting about this. I will probably talk with my advisor about it when I get back from Wisconsin. I was planning on coming to Colorado for New Years. It's starting to look like it's not going to happen. My car is getting older (1998) and it's SO freakin COLD. I know that my pager will not work in most of Neb and Iowa. If something happens to my car or to me, I'll be very screwed. My guts feeling tells me not to go alone but go with a friend. I have asked several of my friends and all of them can't go. Grrrrrrrrrrr. I am disappointed that I won't be able to see my Colorado friends. Maybe Spring Break but then again, I want to go to Texas to see Patty on my spring break for a long weekend. For sure this summer. I have to anyway! Naomi just moved in with me and Brad several days ago before we left for Wisconsin. I feel good about her moving in. We have so much in commons and same lifestyle. It will totally help me out with rent. Brad won't have to worry about payin some extras in rent anymore as his VR pays for his rent (lucky bastard) but even when Naomi and I are taking over the rest of the rent and other utlities, ours is cheaper then what VR is paying. I can't quite complain at all. I saw Matt today. He fix my car as usual. I told Matt that he needs to get used to fixing my car every time I come to Wisconsin! Hehe. He changed my car oil, put new front brake pads, replaced my wipers, suck out the summer window washer fluid and put in winter washer fluid so it doesn't get frozen up! It was nice seeing him. Im going to see a speical friend tomorrow night and I can not wait to see her. It ll be so good to see her after not seeing her for...what four or five years. Its been tooooo long. (Comment on this)